Destiny?

Sometimes, my mouth goes ahead two seconds faster than my brain. This isn´t a exception. I don´t have another excuse. I have to blame you for everything what you make me feel. When somebody cross all my deffenses, (those that I put on me for save myself) it´s very difficult to left it behind. I swear i´m trying, i´m not fucking sad at all..i have a million feelings inside and i need to throw them out.. My experience tells me that the better way to be happy it´s "just "shout your mouth and let the destiny knocks your door".. Where the fuck is the destiny? And if I say to you that already touched my door?